Well, another cycle has begun. Our 8th cycle. I am feeling...well, I don't even know what I am feeling. It's sad. Mostly because this cycle was picture perfect. I had a perfect 28 day cycle, ovulating on day 14. Perfect timing of attempts. And yet here I sit. With cramps and my diva cup.
When this happens, I try to focus on the fact that IVF is in our future. We have decided that we would rather just save our money for our IVF cycle than attempt any IUIs. Which sucks, but it is what we have to do. We are 1/10th of the way there on saving, but it will be awhile.
I am really trying to focus on the fact that the more time it takes to get pregnant is more time that I have to be alone with Nathan. He will be a nice age whenever a sibling arrives. He will be able to be a little more patient and a little more self-sufficient. I won't (hopefully) need to tandem nurse and I will be able to spend a little more time with a newborn.
It will be ok. I need some chocolate.
Thanks for supporting us in this journey.