Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Happy Halloween!

It's Halloween today! My little Lion!! RAR!!!!

Friday, October 26, 2007

It's Friday!

I love Fridays. It is also my friend Carrie's Birthday (Happy Birthday Carrie!!). I simply love Fridays because it is almost the weekend! And weekends are fabulous because I get a small break from mama-land.

Speaking of a break, I miss working. I am so ready to go back part-time. Nathan has started to drink some water from a cup so I think that this will allow me to go back to work for a day or two. Although I am pretty scared to leave him with Daddy. Don't get me wrong, Brandon is an amazing father, Nathan just prefers mama rocking him to sleep and I really don't know how he will handle getting breastmilk from a cup rather than the tap. So anyway, I took a big step and emailed Dr. B (our infertility doc) and asked if he had any weekend positions open. AHHHH!!!! I am waiting on a response. Hopefully I get good news. Although a small part hopes that he doesn't have anything open right now because I am going to miss Nathan something fierce! :)

Speaking of infertility, it sucks. Just plain stinking suckity-suck-sucks. Several friends are going through it right now and my heart breaks for them. K is starting an IVF cycle soon. K, I have every part of my body crossed for you! H is still struggling and trying to have faith. Big Hugs H! Like all infertility sufferers, I wish I could say to Brandon "Let's have another baby!" And then we could go make one! Nope, our process involves so much more than that and it makes me sad. I would love to have my babies two years apart but that isn't possible for us. We have to pay off our first loan before we can pay for another cycle. It is going to be a long four years! And even still, I am not sure that will will even do another IVF cycle because, what if it doesn't work on the first try like last time. The fear is overwhelming at times.

Moving onto lighter news...We think that Nathan is saying his first word and wouldn't you know its DaDa. Forget the person who carried you around for nine months, birthed you after 14 hours of labor and three and a half hours of pushing, nurses you for hours and hours upon end, and spends her nights and days seeing to your every need and want. HA! In all seriousness, it is seriously cute!! We are sure that he has no idea what he is saying or that it even means anything but it is just too freaking cute!

So that is all. Mama must go, Nathan is over the frog toy.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Monday, October 15, 2007

October is Breast Cancer Awareness month!

I would imagine that breast cancer is a terrible diagnosis to face. I cannot imagine the thought of something happening to my breasts. While they are not perfect, they are mine and whole. They have nourished my son for five months now. They make milk that is so sweet and rich that my 7lb 11oz boy has grown to over 20lbs. They are amazing and they make me feel amazing, as a mother, as a wife, and as a woman.

October is Breast Cancer Awareness month. I urge all women to perform their self breast exams every month. I urge all women to breastfeed their babies. A study from Yale University found that women who breastfed for 2 years or longer reduced their risk of developing breast cancer by 50%. Many studies agree that the nation's rise in breast cancer rates can be linked to the fact that women in this country are choosing to use artificial infant formula instead of nursing. This is just one of the many reasons to nurse! And just one of the many reasons that I am proud to call myself a lactivist.

Friday, October 12, 2007

Letter to my Five month old boy...

Dear Nathan-

October has arrived and you are five months young this month. I know that I say this in all my letters but it seems like time just flies by. I wish that I could just hit 'Pause' but it seems that someone has decided on 'Fast forward' instead.

You weigh about 20lbs. You are still off the charts for your weight. I love looking at your chunky thighs and double chin. They are so cute and it warms my heart to think that you have grown so much on my milk. You still love to nurse. Your face lights up every time. You move around so much when you are nursing now. You like to play with your feet and rub your hands across my skin and face. Sometimes you even like to pinch! Mama is trying to break that habit! You won't stay on your back at all. You roll over as soon as I put you down. You have started to push up on your hands as if you are trying to crawl. You just can't seem to get your legs in on the act. I have a feeling that you will be crawling soon though. We work on sitting up too. You can sit for a few seconds before falling over. It is too cute! I can't wait until you can sit up on your own so that you can see more of the world around you. We bought you some spoons to play with and have been trying to spoon feed you some water. You seem to understand what the spoon is for and you open your mouth wide when you see it coming. Next month we will be trying to feed you some fruits and vegtables. I am so sad that this time is almost here! It means that you won't be getting all your nutrition from me anymore. But I know you will still be nursing like crazy anyway!

And so dear boy, another month has slipped away. Fall is here and the days are chilly and I just keep trying to hold onto time as it races by. I am sure that you will change so much by the time I write you the next letter, but for today, I will just tell you that I love you so much the way you are.


Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Tuesday's thoughts....

Happy October!!! This is one of my favorite months! I just love fall. I can't wait for the leaves to change here. The weather is just beginning to cool down at night.

Speaking of nights....poor Nathan is up all night! He is teething something fierce! We are really hoping that we see some teeth soon. That is my reason for not posting here as much. I swear I have an excuse!!! :) My normally happy baby is so cranky all the time now. I wish that there was more I could do for him.

Speaking of little boy is pushing up on his arms when he is on his belly now! Just a matter of time before he pushes up to crawl! We are working on getting him to sit up by himself. He does fairly well except he falls over to the side after a few seconds. He will get there soon enough.

Hmmm....what else as been going on? Not really much of anything. I am looking forward to cooler weather so that I can take Nathan outside more. I will try to keep up better! Hopefully Nathan lets mama get some sleep soon!