Friday, December 31, 2010

2010 in pictures

2010 started off for us with the homebirth of our sweet twin boys. Gavin Quinn and Kai Nicholas joined our family on January 12, 2010. It was an amazingly empowering experience for me that I'll never forget.
Kai's first moments with Mama.
My boys. Fresh and new on their birthday.
This is how the majority of 2010 was spent for me. Nursing Gavin...
and then Kai. But I would do it all again for these....
sweet smiles.
Nathan Cole turned 3 on May 12th. He also went through a phase of not wearing any clothes.
2010 was also spent taking lots of walks with the stroller.
On August 8th, I turned 27 and I began to feel old when....
my baby boy went off to preschool the next week.
In early September, Brandon and I had a one-night getaway for a friend's wedding in Chicago. We came home to...
three sweet boys full of love for each other.
In October, we took family pictures and they turned out better than we had hoped! Our family of 5 is growing up day by day.
Then we had Halloween with the UPS man and...
a lion, a pumpkin, and Cupid.
In November, we were told that Nathan had some markers for Mild Autism Disorder. He keeps learning every day and we are so proud to be his parents. My bet for 2011 is that he will progress so much that you won't be able to tell.
And finally this Christmas was two of our babies' first! Kai loved the presents and almost as much as....
Gavin was more reserved but loved it all the same.

Our 2010 was a tough year. The first year with twins is the hardest thing I (we) have ever gone through. Mostly it was a blur of nursings, diaper changes, and very little sleep. 2011 will start off the same...but hopefully it will get easier for us! All that said, I love my babies. I love my husband. I love life. I hope you'll join me next year for more tantrums, cute baby photos, rants, and lessons that I learn along the way. I'll be ringing in the New Year asleep because I take it when I can get it!

Much love to you and yours,


Sunday, December 26, 2010

Christmastime pictures

Santa came to our house!
Music table for Gavin and Kai
Cookies for Santa
Lucy with the tree
Nathan and Kai-bear
One of Brandon's presents to me. I get these snow globes every year when we go shopping on the day after Thanksgiving. Last year, Nathan accidentally broke my 2007 globe. I was so sad because that was the last year that our Grandma went with us. Brandon was so sweet and found a replacement online!
My necklace from my sons. I love it.
Brandon got me a Nook!
Nathan's school bus from Santa
My mom and me

Kai was more interested in Mama
The chaos
Opening presents on their first Christmas
Me with my new boots from my mom!
My hubby and me. I got him this sweatshirt for Christmas.

Kai Nicholas with Uncle Nicholas
Babies' first Christmas!
Grandma and Gavin

We had a great Christmas! We still have to celebrate with Brandon's side of the family. :)

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Last day before break!

YAY! I made it! Brandon has worked now for 11 days in a row and I am in need of a break. Today is the last day before his 10 day vacation! I'm so excited for the holidays this year! Nathan is going to love Christmas. And Brandon is being really secretive about my present this year. I wonder what it is?!

In other news, Nathan is gaining speech and vocabulary every day. Last night, he actually talked on the phone to my mom and mother-in-law. He has never done that before.

The conversation went like this:

"Hi Grandma!"
"Yeah. Gavin was a pumpkin!" [The memory on this kid is amazing. Gavin was a pumpkin for Halloween.]
"Uh-huh. Good boy. Nathan is a good boy."
"Love you!"
"Thanks. Bye"

So cute. It is super weird having a conversation with him now because I actually understand what he is saying. Yesterday he woke up and came up to Gavin and Kai and gave them both kisses. His little voice whispered "I love you Gavy. I love you Kai." My heart melted.

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

3 boys in a basket

Update on the Couch to 5 K

Turns out that it is impossible to run when you feel like crap for 3 weeks straight. Whowouldathought? First it was mastitis and thrush for 10 days. Then it was the flu for 4 days. Then it was a GI infection that lasted for a week. *sigh* So my pour little couch got way too much use for 3 weeks. And I am completely off my plan. I'm pretty sad about it because I was so motivated and feeling great. So now I'm in search of a new workout plan to get me through this winter. I thought about starting the 30 day shred again, but eh. I don't want to get bored. So I'm searching now. And then in the spring (when it isn't 2 degrees outside) I'll start the Couch to 5K over again.

Got any recommendations for me?

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Reconciling my beliefs...Winter Solstice

Many of you may know that I have had a crisis of faith over the past couple of years. I wasn't really sure what I believed and what I didn't believe. It left me feeling really unfulfilled because I didn't have a label for myself. I surely wasn't Christian because I don't believe in Jesus or the bible. I wasn't quite Pagan either.

So I defined myself as agnostic simply because I liked having that label. I am more of Agnostic theist with a splash of Paganism. Agnostic because I can't confirm the presence of a God or Goddess. But the theism side comes from the fact that although I can't confirm the presence of a God/ Gods, I believe that there is something out there. Clear as mud no? And I love the ritualism and main belief system of the Pagan community. I also appreciate the history of Paganism.

So I've come to the conclusion that I don't really need to have a label. But on days like today I feel such a strong spiritual pull. Today is the day of the Winter Solstice. It marks the turning point, in which the days start lengthening. So the light diminishes the dark. I have my candle lit today as I do every Solstice. I love the ritual. I love the cleansing feeling I get from today. It makes me happy inside.

But I also celebrate Christmas. Although we have no Christ in Christmas. After all, the history of Christmas does not include Jesus. We celebrate the day as a day of giving to our family and friends. We celebrate with the story of Saint Nicholas who was the basis behind Santa Claus.

So while my beliefs may not be cut and dry or popular, I feel a sense of peace about it. I pray nightly to a God or Goddess. I'm just not meant to know what that higher power is. I just believe in something higher than myself.

Love this time of year.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Kai-bear is a walker!

Here comes Kai!
Hi mom! Give me that camera.
Gav watches with interest.
Yay mom! I can do it!

He has really taken off the past couple of days! He is walking all the way across the room now!