It is always this blog (and don't even get me started on scrapbooking) that takes a backseat to life and kids and school and work. But as I use this blog as a diary of sorts, I really do try to update it when important things happen.
So, life is still insane. I am currently 331 days away from completing my CNM program! Not that I am counting or anything...
This summer semester is killing me. Clinical hours have doubled, class workload has doubled, and my time has been halved. I continue to do well, but I'm not going to lie and say that it isn't hard. I cannot wait to be done. Just the stress of deadlines and exams is sometimes just too much. I'm trying to really reign in my anxiety, but sometimes it is hard. Having twin three year olds is not for the faint of heart. They try my patience to the limit some days.
Running has really taken a backseat. I try to get out at least once a week, but it is so hard to force myself to get out there when I am just so tired and just want to relax for 5 minutes peace. But I'm still going, so that's what counts. I have two half-marathons on the books for this fall. I'm looking forward to that! For now, I'm just trying to maintain my current endurance level. A couple miles here and there do make a difference. My weight has roughly stayed the same, I will have the 5 lb fluctuations, as all women do, but mostly I'm happy with where I'm at.
Our poor social life has also been on the back burner since about March. Fortunately, we have some great weekends coming up. Brandon and I are headed to Saint Louis this weekend to visit our friends and hit up a Cardinals game (I'm going to drink beer as I have no interest in baseball). Then next weekend, we are headed to Columbus, Ohio with some friends to see my favorite band, The Postal Service. I'm really looking forward to that!!
The boys are doing well. As you can see from previous posts, the twins are potty-trained! And fighting. They test even Mother Teresa's patience. It seems that someone is always hurt and always crying. Which makes me think that three kids is plenty for us! Although I will admit to having a bit of baby fever now and again. Today, however, I do not and am ready for these kids to move on out of here. Nathan is doing well, making friends around the neighborhood, and continuing the process of learning to read. School is out for the summer and he is enjoying that.
BP is doing well, working a lot. Busy with the kids, same old.
My work is going ok. Our census is very low at the moment, so I've been called off a bit too much in these past few weeks, which as lead me to find a new job. Not that I am leaving my old one, but I need some supplemental hours to cover my sitter costs while I am at clinicals. So I've interviewed at several bigger hospitals in Indianapolis and hope that one of those works out.
All-in-all, I'm not gonna sugarcoat it. My life is really hard right now. School is just so hard. And I'm just trying to be everything to everybody. And I'm exhausted. I know a year from now, when I am done and passed my boards and have found the perfect job, I will be happy that I put all this work into it. But right now it is hard to see. Disclaimer: This year STILL does not even come close to the insanely horrible year after the babies were born. While I adore them and they are the cutest, THAT was still the hardest year ever and I made it through! Sometimes it is the little things...
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
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Happy Mother's Day to me! My sweet sons and husband made this a very special day for me. They have me the complete Harry Potter boxed set of books. This made me cry. My old books are frayed and torn in places and falling apart from so many reads. This just really shows how well BP knows me.
Happy 6th birthday sweetheart! What a wild and crazy 6 years it has been. You have grown and changed so much, and I am so proud of you for all you have done this past year.
You have grown 3 inches this year! You are currently 47 inches tall. You have also gained 7.2 pounds and are up to 47.4lbs. This puts you at the very top of the growth curve for your height (just like Daddy) and around the top middle for your weight. Tall and skinny. :)
So much has happened it is hard to know where to start. First of all, I'm writing this letter to you a bit late (around a week or so) because this week has been so busy! You turned 6 on Mother's Day this year! We had a wonderful day. We took you to Chuck E. Cheese to celebrate your birthday and Gav and Kai's newly potty skills! We had your party the next day at a park. It was such a fun day! You had lots of friends from your class there and had an excellent time. You got a new, bigger bike and love it!
This week was also very special because you graduated from Kindergarten! You have worked so hard this year. You are in the process of learning to read. During Kindergarten this year, you have learned over 100 sight words and have read a total of 50 books! You are beginning to understand Math and have really enjoyed computer lab. You've made many friends and made so many strides in speech. It is actually difficult to tell you had a speech delay at all. Our biggest obstactle we are working on overcoming is your anxiety. You have such high levels of anxiety (just like Mama) and we are really working on ways to help you with this. You get better each day.
You are an amazing big brother. You have helped Kai and Gavin learn how to use the potty! You help them to go, remind them when it is time, and help them put a sticker on their sticker chart. You are the first one to clap for them when they get it right!
So another year has sped by, and at 6 years old, you are already such an amazing person. I love you so much. It is so fitting that your birthday fell on Mother's Day, as you are the reason that I became a mother in the first place. Happiest of birthdays my sweet son.
Interview with a 6 year old, Nathan Cole:
What is your name? Nathan Cole
How old are you? 6
Who is your best friend? Owen (he lives down the street)
What is your favorite food? Pizza
What is your favorite animal? Giraffe
What is your favorite color? Purple
What is your favorite movie? Back to the Future
Who is your favorite person? Owen
Who are your brothers? Gavin and Kai
What does mommy do? She takes care of babies.
What does daddy do? He works on Honda cars.
What do you want to be when you grow up? I want to take care of babies like Mommy.
What do you love? Mommy (same answer as last year, and I love it).