Monday, November 30, 2009

Nathan Cole = Big boy

**sniff**

I just can't believe how much he has grown up.

He is completely mastered using the potty. We haven't had an accident in a long time. He is also staying dry all night now. He woke up this morning around 8:00am and said "Potty!" He is just getting so big. Pretty soon, we won't need the nighttime diaper at all.

He is also sleeping all night in his own bed. This morning he slept until 7:15. He woke up and then came and snuggled in bed with me until he had to go potty.

My baby boy is growing up. Pretty soon he will be a big brother. The thought of that makes me smile and cry at the same time.

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Preview of maternity pictures

These are just a preview of some of the maternity pictures we had taken yesterday! I can't wait to share some of our favorites!


Thursday, November 26, 2009

Thankful...

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!!

It is always nice to remember the things that I am thankful for and what better day to do that!

I am so thankful for:

-My husband. He is a great man and a wonderful father. He treats me so well and we have a good, strong marriage.

-Nathan Cole. What an amazing little boy we have. He is just so adorable and loving. He is growing and changing every day and I am just so proud of him.

-These two sweet babies growing inside me. There is no better time of year to be pregnant. I am so thankful that the boys are growing so well. I am so thankful that my body is changing and growing right along with them.

-Our home. I love it here. It is the perfect house for us at this stage of our lives. It is so cozy and warm.

-My family. I have a great mama and wonderful brothers. We are a crazy bunch, but we stick together. I'm thankful that my in-laws are great people too. I got really lucky!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Night three and other things...

Night three went better. Although I am 100% sure that it has something to do with the fact that I took some Benadryl to help with my skin itching, so I was able to finally sleep.

Nathan slept from 9:30-6:30, then woke up, got into bed with me and slept until 8:30. I feel much better today after getting some sleep last night, but I know that was just because of the Benadryl.

Speaking of Benadryl, so far, the worst thing about twin pregnancy is the stretching of the skin on my belly. It is so painful and so itchy all the time. It is an almost constant itch! Very annoying.

Oh and something exciting happened yesterday!! My birth pool was delivered!! I was so excited to get that package! It makes it feel so real. :) I also hit 33 weeks yesterday. Only 4 weeks to go until I reach my goal! I can do it!

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Night Two didn't go any better for me

I only got (maybe) 2-3 hours of sleep.

Nathan, on the other hand, slept until 4am. He woke up crying and I heard him in the hallway frantically looking for us. I went and got him and put him into bed with me. That is when I finally was able to fall asleep.

I just don't know if I can do this yet. But I feel some sort of pressure to do it because of the babies coming. I just wish that we could all sleep in the same bed. I'm not sure that Nathan will be able to sleep through nighttime feedings and crying from the babies.

Monday, November 23, 2009

How do people do this from birth???

Last night was the first night with Nathan sleeping in another room. He did ok. He went to sleep easily, but woke up around 1:00am to get into bed with us. I expected that.

I however, did not do ok. I didn't fall asleep until he came to bed with us. I just could not go to sleep knowing that he was in another room.

It really made me wonder how parents do this to their newborns. Makes my heart hurt just thinking about it.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Cloth diaper stash for the twins...

Here is where all diapers live...This is a shelving unit right by the changing table. You can kinda see the baskets on the changing table too. Those are where Nathan's cloth diapers are.

Babies' first outfit! Cute little matching shirts and diapers with the "Goldfish in bags" print.


All the prefolds! On the left starts with preemie size (for doublers). The orange stack is 24 newborn prefolds. They yellow stack is infant size. In the front are our special prefolds. The two on the left are embellished with "Goldfish in bags" fabric. The two on the right are bamboo velour. Oh so soft...



One-size blueberry diapers! 20 of them. :)


Extra-small Blueberry diapers for the newborn stage.


On the left is small Blueberry All-in-ones. On the right is the medium size.



2 small Blueberry pockets.


Fitted diapers! 6 Goodmama one-size diapers, 2 small Clovers, 2 random newborn fitteds.


Some wool. I am not really experienced with wool, so I don't have a lot of it. These are all newborn size soakers. Thanks Amanda!


Newborn/ one-size covers. As you can see, I still need some newborn covers. 4-6 more should do it. :)


Add in some snappis, wet bags (still need), pail liners, etc. and you have a complete stash for two babies!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

32 weeks!!

My goodness....I am 8 months pregnant now!!!! Time is just flying by so quickly! I will get another belly picture tonight. :)



How I am feeling: Great! I haven't had any more real contractions since that night. I am feeling much more positive that I will carry these babies to term. I had a midwife appointment yesterday and she is very pleased with how well I am doing. I have gained 25lbs so far which is right on track for twins. She is happy with the babies' positions and their size at this point. My blood pressure is still perfect and I am not having any swelling! I am so, so lucky that my pregnancy has been going this well. Mentally, I am doing so well. One of the best choices I made was to go to therapy during this pregnancy. I have learned so much about myself and I feel like it has made me a better person. I am looking forward to the boys' arrival so much now! I absolutely can't wait (well I can...) for them to get here! And speaking of which, my midwife is so pleased with how things are going, she said that as long as I make it to 36 weeks, we are still a go for our homebirth! YAY! Granted, we are hoping they stay in as long as possible. But it does take a weight off to have that week cushion. I am still imagining them coming after 38 weeks around the 30th of December. Even still, it is so hard to imagine that in as little as 4 weeks, we could be meeting our boys! So excited! Not to mention that this is my absolute favorite time of year. I love Thanksgiving and all the Christmas preparations. It just makes me happy inside. I can't wait to watch Christmas movies with Brandon and Nathan. I can't wait to see Nathan's excited face as he sees the tree. What a beautiful time of year to be pregnant!



What the babies are up to: Per the ultrasound, we know that they are a little over 4lbs each! They are quickly growing now and filling out nicely. These last few weeks will be spend packing on the pounds and getting ready for their births! The downy layer of lanugo will begin to fall off this week. Their movements are slowing down because they are quickly running out of space!

Friday, November 13, 2009

Had another ultrasound yesterday

Due to the fact that I had all those contractions last week and that I am entering a time in which lots of twins are born (the uterus is now the size of a full-term pregnancy, so this is common time for preterm birth in twin mamas) I had an ultrasound yesterday.

The good news first: Both babies are head down!! Baby A's head is in exactly the right position for birth. He is curled up on my right side facing his brother with his feet in front of his face. Baby B's head is right next to Baby A's and he is curled up with is back to my left side and his feet are spread across my upper belly. Baby B was the one this time to do all the punching and kicking to Baby A!

Both babies are on the upper side of the scale for weight and length. Baby A weighs (approximately) 4lbs 6oz. Baby B weighs 4lbs 3oz.

We got to see both babies making breathing motions! That is such a good sign for this gestational age. We know that those muscles are working in there and they are practicing to breathe after they are born.

Both babies have hair! The ultrasound technician pointed it out to us. It was adorable! Baby B actually has more hair than Baby A right now.

Now for the so-so news: My cervical length is 2cm. It was at 4cms at our last ultrasound 5 weeks ago. So it is shortening. My midwife isn't too concerned yet though. Basically, she said that some shortening at this stage of the pregnancy is normal. Especially because I am a second-time mom and because I am carrying twins. So we are just going to continue on with our plan of resting as much as I can. We will probably recheck the cervix in 3-4 weeks or so. Some of the twin-mamas I have talked to have said that their cervical length was similar at this stage in their pregnancies and they went on to have full-term babies. So, I am not too worried about it right now. I may go back next week to have another fetal fibronectin test, but I will have to talk to my midwife about that next week.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Letter to my 2 and a half year old boy!

Dear Nathan,

It is so hard to believe that you are 2 and a half. Time has just gone by so quickly. You look so big now. When I look at your baby pictures, I have to struggle to remember what it was like for you to be that small.

You are doing so well. You have this potty learning thing down pat! You are still wearing cloth diapers though. We can't seem to get you to like wearing underwear. We are going to try again soon. But you go all day in the same cloth diaper so it is kind of like wearing underwear. You tell us when you have to go potty, although sometimes we have to remind you. You are still wet at night sometimes, but I can understand that. :)

Your speech is improving daily. We are working on colors and the differences between big and little right now. It is hard to see the changes daily, but over time we can definitely tell that you are expanding on your vocabulary. We meet with speech therapists two times a week. You really like both of them. You look forward to their visits. Their names are Julie and Rya.

We are working with you on understanding how to be gentle with other people/ pets. It is so hard for you to control your big body! You are such a rough and tumble kid, it is hard for you to understand that some people aren't as strong. Your cousin Will being one of those people. We are really trying to work with you though.

Mama's belly is getting very big! The babies are coming soon! You really don't have any concept yet. Although you do point to Mama's belly when I say "Where are the babies?". I am so nervous about how you will react. And a small part of me is mourning the loss of Mama and Nathan time. It has been you and me together for so long. I just hope that you know how much I will always love you. I know these next few months will be difficult for you, but I promise, you will love having brothers to play with someday. And you are such a big helper to me right now. When I drop something, you always pick it up for me so that I don't have to bend over. It makes my heart smile.

Let's see, what new things are you doing these days? You play all the time. You love running around the yard with the dog. You love waiting for Daddy to come home at the end of the day. You stare out the window and yell "Daddy" when he pulls up. You still love watching Spongebob, although you are starting to like Dora the Explorer too. I try not to let you watch too much TV each day, but it is getting so hard for me to move around and play with you. That makes me sad. Thankfully, you have been spending lots of time with Daddy and Grandma! You are also getting better about walking with us and holding our hands. This makes it nice because Mama has a hard time carrying you. Your tantrums are slowly improving, but sometimes it is hard to control your frustration. I understand that feeling though. In other news, we are getting ready to try you sleeping in your own bed. This is a big transition for all of us. I imagine that I will be the one who sheds the most tears about it. I just love waking up to you in the morning. There is nothing better than when you snuggle up next to me and say "Mama".

I am just so lucky to have you in my life. You make me a better person. You will always be special to me and I will always love you, no matter what.

Mama

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

A big change coming at our house

**sniff**

It is time to transition Nathan into his own bed. *sob* I just know that co-sleeping with a toddler and two newborns is going to be next to impossible. And I need to have the crib (it is used as a side-car to our bed) available for the babies.

It is going to be a really hard transition for me. There is nothing better than snuggling up with Nathan at night. He is so warm and lovable.

So for now, we will try having him sleep in the guest room (queen size bed) with bed rails. Brandon will put him down to sleep and then come to our room. We plan on putting a gate up at the end of the hall to prevent him from roaming the house at night. Hopefully he will come to our room if he wakes up. We will try in the guest room for awhile and if he does well, then we will get him his own bed in his room.

Wish us luck! We are starting this weekend.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Doing well

I am doing much better since the ordeal last Thursday.

No more real contractions! I have been taking it pretty easy around the house. Thankfully Brandon cleaned yesterday so that I don't have to look at a messy house.

The waiting is hard. The not knowing is hard. I just want to know that I will carry these babies to term. I am really trying to focus on having faith in my body. It has gotten me this far and I know it will continue on. :) Hypnobabies really helps with this. It is just so relaxing to listen to those CDs at the end of the day.

The only bad thing about being this far into pregnancy is the lack of movement. The boys are quickly running out of room in there and the movements have slowed way down. Thankfully, in just a couple weeks, my appointments with my midwife will be weekly so that we can monitor the babies and I can have a little more peace of mind.

I have to schedule an ultrasound this week to double check on my cervix and to check on the boys' growth patterns. I can't wait for that!

Friday, November 6, 2009

My crazy night last night....

Geez, what a night we had last night.

It all started around 3pm or so. I noticed some sporadic contractions. They weren't very regular but some were painful. Around 4:30 or so, the contractions went to every 5 minutes and some were being felt quite low in my uterus. I called my midwife who instructed me to have a large glass of water and take a warm bath.

The water and bath helped some, but after I got out of the tub, they picked back up to every 5 minutes. I called the midwife back and she said to head to the hospital. I really, really did NOT want to do this. Most of you know of my hospital phobia issues related to my last birth. So I stalled around for awhile hoping they would go away. They didn't, so I called my mom to have her come sit with Nathan, and Brandon and I headed out to the hospital.

Now, I was scared just to walk into the hospital because, let's face it, having twins and a homebirth isn't looked at too fondly these days. My nerves were out of control which I am sure was making the contractions worse.

So, we went up to OB triage and surprisingly, they were very nice! I had the sweetest nurse who had been doing this for 30+ years who didn't even bat an eye when we told her we were planning a homebirth. She did say "Well I'm glad you came in though. Better to get these things checked out and out of the way now." She was just really nice. I was able to tell her a little bit about my hospital phobia and she went out of her way to make sure that I was comfortable and taken care of. She said "Well, I'm so sorry that happened to you. I'll be right here the whole time." Needless to say she really made the experience very smooth and I am grateful to her.

So they put me on the monitor and it turns out I was having contractions every 2-3 minutes. The nurse wasn't too pleased with the way things were looking and I wasn't either. However, the good thing was that the contractions that the monitor was picking up weren't painful to me (just Braxton Hicks). So the resident came in and did an exam (OUCH) and took some swabs to send off for the fetal fibronectin test (a test that, if negative, can almost guarantee that you won't be going into labor within the next two weeks). She did say that I was not dilating at all although my cervix was rather soft. She wanted to keep me on the monitors for the next hour to see if the contractions would stop. She also wanted to make sure that they babies' heart rates were doing ok and reactive (they were perfect the whole time!).

So after an hour, the contractions finally started spreading out and I would go 15 minutes without having one! The nurse was really pleased with this. The resident came back in and told me that the fetal fibronectin test was negative (YAY!) and that my cultures and urine tests came back great. She said we were free to go and to follow up with my midwife. Basically I just have an irritable uterus right now and am now on modified bed rest at home.

I tell you though, this experience made me realize how much I do not want to go back to the hospital. I am just hoping that my uterus cooperates and I get to have these babies at home! :)