Halfway there today! I can't believe that I am considered 5 months pregnant now.
How I am feeling: Well, to be honest, it hit me last night that these babies will be coming in four months. 4 months!! I feel like this pregnancy is going way too fast for me. I am just not ready. After realizing last night that I only have 4 months left, I started to feel such fear. :( I'm really scared about how the births will go. I am really scared of my relationship with Nathan changing forever. I am scared about how much my life will change after they arrive. I really don't want to go back to waking up every hour at night and the thought of taking care of three kids is enough to make me break out into a cold sweat. So, those are really the only thoughts I have today as I hit the halfway point. I am also trying to come to terms with the fact that I will never have a daughter. I guess I am just mourning that loss right now too. Not that I am not excited about having two more boys, I am just a little sad that we will never have the chance to parent a daughter.
What the babies are up to: Each baby's delicate skin is protected with a greasy, cheese-like coating called vernix caseosa. By now each baby may be about 6 1/3 inches (160 millimeters) long from crown to rump and weigh more than 11 ounces (320 grams).