Sadly, I don't think that Nathan will return to nursing. We are now 3 days into our strike and he won't even let me hold him.
I am beyond heartbroken. I miss that connection I had to him. I miss looking down into his sweet face. I miss the milky smiles he would give me when he was done. I miss watching him drift off to sleep with a look of pure peace. I miss breathing him in and cherishing his baby smell. I miss his little hand cupped over my breast. I miss him kicking his feet in excitement. I miss him running over to me with a big smile, when I sat down in our nursing place.
I'll never have that again. And my heart hurts.