Nathan is on a nursing strike. 2 days have passed since he last nursed. I thought it was because of a stuffy nose. Now I'm not sure. He fell a couple of days ago and bit his tongue. It bled at the time, but he seemed fine after that. He hasn't nursed since then.
I am beyond sad. I have moved into a place of depression. It was just so sudden. I didn't even savor our last session. I didn't look into his eyes and watch him. I didn't hold him close and just breathe him in. I miss it so much.
I feel like I've failed. I wanted to nurse him for 2 years. I wanted to tandem nurse with the next baby. And now, it's gone. I just keep crying. The tears won't stop.